My IDAMAN

do you believe that friend of a lifetime are exist?

do you believe that some people are destined to fill the empty-space in your life?

do you believe that some people will always stay here?

because, I do believe it.

Three years ago, I met some of them.

And one year a half ago, God unite us. We become a good friends, a good friendship, and growing up together for a better.

I never thought they were going to be means so much to me.

All I knew before is friendship sounds lie, no one can have it.

I thought they were just a part of people who just comes and goes to my life.

I thought this wouldn't be that strong.

I thought everything would be the same, at the end.

But, they came to my life.

And they have changed my perspective about it all.

They might be not a sweet friends, but they would be the honest one.

You won't believe this, but they have changed me to better.

They aren't the type of friends who always support you even you are wrong.

They are the type of friends who tell you that they won't support you because you are wrong.

They aren't the type of friends who talk sweet about you in front of you.

They are the type of friends who talk sweet about you in the behind.

No, our friendship not really that easy.

We already through the ups and downs.

One a half year ago, when we just knew each other. I still remember how Daniel and Fariz tried to walk away from us just because their crush didn't like our friendship. I still remember how Chacha told me that she wanna moves to Bali that year and I just felt so down because she is the one who knows me. I still remember how Fariz felt so uncomfortable when a lot people said a worst news about him and Thara. 

One year ago, I still remember how Zahra and Rezky just broke-up and we were so sad about this because they already been together for almost two years. I still remember how Ariq felt so let down because he just broke-up with Isabel. I still remember how Monic was crying and told us that her classmate ignore and bully her. And I still remember the drama between me and Daniel.

Days by days we are doing everything just fine. We are through the time together and blow up a candle together.

Four months ago, I messed up everything.

I made a problem, I don't know but that was just a miss-understood.

I thought I really can't fix it all,

I thought I would lose them,

I thought they wouldn't understand me.

But I'm wrong.

They're still believe me.

They accepted my forgiveness.

They still here, with me through the ups and downs.

And I can fix it all and clear all the things up.

Now, times flights so fast.

We are growing up.

The distance and the times might apart us, but we won't.

Here I am.

Will always wait for you all to come home.

Ps: So sorry for being a young dumbass and hard-headed girl yo, I promise I won't do it anymore!

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Notes.

Dear Ariq,

Stay young and dumb, but don't forget that we wait you next year in the university.

One more year for highschool life, don't waste it.

We might be dumbass senior but remember that we will always here to help you.

Succes for your next study! 

I love you and I hope you will still be my our little brother.

Dear Daniel,

the last problem might apart us.

But you know that I never text people first.

No, I will never leaving like I said before.

Thank you for always being so patient of me.

You will always be my favorite brother and sorry for the stupidness in the past.

You know that you will always can reach it, I always hate to watching you leave. I hate when you are being a pessimist person. Be optimist, always. 

And you know that I always love you, take care captain!

Dear Fariz,

Be careful in Jakarta, riz. I still can't believe why you should going to Jakarta. 

Thanks for being the one who listen to my story in your motor-cycle all the time. 

Thanks for being that fail spy. 

Riz, you might be a slower-thinker but you are so clever. DAMN, HOW YOU DID IT?

I love you, you are awesome.

Please don't change.

Dear Monic,

Stay strong, no matter how hard the situation.

You are awesome even just in the picture, lol no no just kidding.

Don't hear what anyone says about you.

Thanks for help me to fix the last problem.

Three years together and still in the same university but I'm still so sad about this.

I love you mon, always remember that you are amazing!

Dear Chacha,

Totally we are through everything!

Such a great blessing to have a friend like you.

Don't be afraid that I will leave you, because I won't.

Cha, don't ever think that you have no one.

You have everything, you have us, you have me.

Just because I don't text you or call you doesn't mean I don't remember you.

You will always be the best friend of mine.

I love you from the deepest!

Dear Rezky,

You know that you are the one who will text me if I'm lost from the world.

Thank you for being mature whenever I tell you about my problems.

You are a great person but a lazy person.

Stay be a judge person because I love the way how you judge people.

I love you my daddy haha lol no kidding, I love you even ya i know you didn't love me back.

Dear Thara,

I always know that you are gonna be my close friend since I saw you in Sosiology class.

Please be fat at least please have a chubby cheek.

Thar, you will always be my little friend.

Thank you for always being here, and listen to me.

Next time I promise that I will buy you an action figure.

I love you like you love one piece so much!

Dear Zahra,

You will always be my coolest girl in the world.

I always adore you since we are met.

I know that actually you care about everything.

Thank you for always listen to my drama stroy, and judge me because if you don't judge I won't change for a better.

Keep being the coolest girl in the world because I always adore how you act.

I love you jah! even you will so ew if you are reading this, someday HAHAHA.

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